Finding my passion

Hi! My name is Raquel, I am 24 years old, and I graduated from Sam Houston State University. I am from Houston, Texas, but I am currently living in New York City so that I may have better opportunities to follow my passion. My passion is music. To be more specific, my passion is Hip Hop. I want to someday own my own record company, but learn the basics first. My biggest struggle in college was depression because of the many things that I had to deal with alongside the books. Music helped me to notice my worth and my purpose in life. If it wasn’t for college, I would have never had the opportunity to get to know myself (what I like and dislike about myself). If it wasn’t for Hip Hop, I wouldn’t exist. I’m that passionate about what I love even after the biggest downfall of my life.

The very last month of college I decided that I didn’t want to be a crime scene investigator any longer. No matter what we go to college for, our minds have the capability of changing. What I once wanted in life, I no longer wanted. I wanted something new simply because a change of passion. We have the right to change our minds about what we want to do in life, right? The only problem that I had with myself in that last month of college was that I didn’t change my mind about what I wanted to do in life. That last month, I didn’t know what I wanted to do at all for a living. Not knowing your purpose in life can become very stressful and quite depressing, especially after working so hard for four years to achieve a degree in a subject that you no longer have interest in. I punished my body for not knowing what I wanted to do in life. I actually became very depressed and idle. Pessimism broke my body down, destroyed my mind, and saddened my heart. I didn’t know what to do to with myself. I was a woman that felt worthless because of a dream that I believed in before, worked so hard to achieve, and no longer wanted. I felt like I had wasted four years of my life. Please, don’t ever feel as if anything in your life is a mistake. Everything truly does happen for a reason. As much as I believe that I wasted four years, I absolutely needed them to be a part of my life. I needed the depression as well. That last sentence may sound down right crazy and it is, but I meant it. Everything happens for a reason. All my mistakes, all my tears, all my pessimism, all my sadness, and all my worthlessness thoughts of myself made me so strong today. Does this seem strange? Well, all that “growing” time became the force that drives me today. Right now, I have a passion that I found and that I am truly passionate about. Am I afraid that my passion will change? You bet I am. This is because it’s happened to me before. But I’m so passionate about what I do that I don’t care to be afraid of what my mind does and if it changes. Friends will be friends and family will be family. Some friends may not believe in your new passion because you changed your mind about it in the first place. Family may think that you can’t stick to one thing. Please believe in what you want to believe in and only if you truly consider it to be a passion. To like to do something is very different from being passionate about something. I use to be so afraid to say this, “I love music and I want to produce music.” I have a degree in criminal justice and that’s fine. I have a degree, don’t I. Who can be mad at that? Follow your passion regardless of what you’ve been doing. Do what you what to do in life now. Don’t let friends or family keep you away from any passion. Prove to yourself how much you believe in your passion and others will see. I know I love mine; I’m currently living in New York City to fulfill my passion from a long way from Texas. Live your passion and never be depressed about what you’ve already done. Start now.

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